THANK YOU MY LOVE!!!!!!!!!

After a very long, busy, hectic, crazy day of house searching, and possible disappointment, I came home to a beautiful bouquet of white flowers from my wonderful, thoughtful and romantic husband. He also sent me a big box of chocolates, way to go honeyloves!!! :-) The card moved me to tears. THANK YOU, my wonderful husband, for making my day so much better. You are amazing, and I appreciate your thoughtfulness!!! MUAH XOXOXOX

NEED SLEEP

I am still awake; I have been on the phone with Mama L, and when we get to talkin', there is just no stopping us! :-) I had to talk to someone about my obsession with Jamie's care packages, and Mama L was just the person to make me feel better about it! We finalized my crazy list, and she helped me think of more things to send!

I am excited to get out and do the shopping tomorrow; I am going to get the items for Jamie's care package, which thanks to Jenn, Cori and Mama L is a lot less than originally planned...I really do have great support and help (THANK YOU GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!). I am also going to get some flowers/plants (not sure which yet) to send to our nephew Tyas and son, Kyle. Both the boys have a difficult time with Dad/Uncle Jamie being in Iraq, so I am going to mail a package to them both "from Jamie in Iraq". Cori liked the idea of sending them seeds to plant something. It will give them something to "remember" Jamie, and at the same time it is something they will hopefully enjoy taking care of...responsibility, always a great thing for boys their age! I think Tyas will do a really good job, but Kyle may get bored with it...we'll see. Tyas is very much a nurturer.

Okay, I REALLY need to go to bed!!! My OCD needs to shut off for the evening!

LOVES!!! XOXOXOX

OCD???

Okay, I have come to the realization that I really do have OCD. I thought it was just a haha thing, but no...I believe my worst nightmare is coming true. I opened up my planner today, and noticed that pretty much every single day for the rest of this month there is something to do, and by "something", I mean appointments, bridal showers, bachelorette parties, birthday parties, cook-outs etc. I am a little overwhelmed by it all...is this normal? I feel anxious and really stressed out, like if I forget something it will be the end of the world, I will make someone mad, etc. It's not a fun feeling at all!!!
Also, I am obsessing about Jamie's packages and things that he needs us to send to him. Rather than letting it all just happen, I feel like I have to make SURE he gets it all...I am really not right! No wonder people get annoyed by me, I would too!!! My sisters can back me up here, I WAS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS!!!!!!!! I was the one with the messy room, clothes strung from one end to the other, and not a care in the world...not anymore! Did motherhood change me??? I mean, in this way? ANYONE??? HELP??? ADVICE??? Come on, help a poor girl out!

Okay, so my accomplishments today: I went to Wal-mart AGAIN for some household items: paper towels, toilet paper, puppy pads (Di's dog), laundry detergent, bleach, crackers for Rowan, Diet Coke, etc. I got Jamie's anniversary card too! SO SWEET, it made me cry...I'm a little emotional. I talked to Cori, my sis in law, before I went into Wal-mart...I was a little sad. I also went to AT&T to find out why the heck my cell phone ring is so quiet...turns out I had it on volume 3...now it is on 7...MUCH BETTER; yes, I AM THAT girl! LOL I went to the post office to mail out some more cards; and yes, I am a total card whore! Oh, and I went to tan at 7 this morning...that is too early! AND...I successfully burnt my entire body, again...I hurt, and I look like a lobster, AGAIN...I think I should call it quits with the tanning thing.
For dinner, we ordered pizza, which Rowan just happens to LOVE!!! We did a little art project with the finger paints, turns out that ROWAN HATES PAINTS!!!!!!!!!!! Who freakin' knew? It's messy, I thought he would love it! Needless to say, we had a good bath tonight!

So, Rowan has learned a few new tricks:
1. He is officially blowing kisses
2. He is saying "bye-bye" very clearly now
3. He is learning to walk down the stairs
4. He has learned to start off the top stair to come down, something he was very much afraid of before now.

I'm sure there are more, but I can't think of them right now. I took some allergy meds, and I am a little loopy right now; Rowan also took Benadryl tonight b/c he has a mad rash all over his left arm...not sure what caused that!

Alright, I am off for the night; much love!

Wednesday, May 7th

Hi there everyone! Today has been a mellow one; the weather didn't permit to do too much, so we hung out at home quite a bit, and...I GOT A NAP! That's right, sure did, and it was very much enjoyable! :-) Thank you to my little munchkin for letting Mommy relax, kick her heels up, and catch some Z's this afternoon!!!

This evening, we hit a baseball game. It was still raining, so we stayed in the car, but I'm tellin' ya now...I have a future pro-ball player on my hands! HE LOVED IT! He watched the game very intensely for quite some time. It was neat!!!

I got some work done around here when we got home; Rowan received some new sippys, bowls and snack trap cups from Autumn, so I had to get some boiling done...lol Yep, I still do that! I also boiled all his bottles and nipples, all the stuff I could find pretty much.
Rowan is sleeping sweet right now, and I have to get up super early tomorrow, so I am hoping I can fall asleep quickly tonight...perhaps some wine is in order??? Hmmm...lol

Oh no...I just saw the end of Idol...what a bummer, Jason Castro is going home! Jason, I have enjoyed watching and listening to you this season!!! Hope you make an album SOON, include lots of pictures...I shall miss seing you....XOXOXOXOX

Okay, I am attaching some pictures from tonight; I decided NOT to put Rowan in the tub, and instead I just took a wash cloth and soap to him...it was much simpler! Only problem, his hair got a little out of control!

Some more pictures

These are from Rachel and Rex's reception this past Saturday.

Tuesday, May 6th

Today was beautiful and oh, so wonderful!!!!!!!! I got to talk to my man today, always a big mood booster! One problem though: his timing...and he doesn't understand that I cannot just sit at the computer and talk to him for hours! I have a munchkin running around crazy, and when he is napping it is time for mommy to get stuff done. Sorry baby! You know I would talk to you all day if I had the option!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!
Anyway, I had a good one today. I got some iced coffee, energy! WOOHOOO I put some pork chops, potatoes, and corn on the cob on the grill, baked a french loaf and made some deviled eggs for dinner. Rowan LOVED it all. HEHE I went for a walk with Ro and the dogs, always fun to get out for a bit!
So yeah, today was good, but not too busy...the way I like it! Good night all!

XOXOXOX

JAMIE'S ADDRESS

Hello! I got to talk to Jamie briefly today, and I finally have an address for him! I am leery to post it on here for the world to see, but if you are interested in having his address, please leave me a comment with an email address, and I will send it to you! THANKS!!!!!!!!!

Monday, May 5th

Today was relatively uneventful for the most part, so nothing major to report. I did get some errands ran, went to take a few things back and to the grocery store for some must-haves: milk, eggs, cereal, bread, juice, etc. I also got to the gym tonight for chi ball class, my favorite!!! I love that class. It's very relaxing and straining at the same time.
I was starving tonight, and went to get breakfast from Perkins! MMM MMM GOOD! Too bad it ruined the day for calories! Rowan hasn't been eating too much, but he is taking the milk now which is nice. He is in bed, and I am headed there myself. Jamie can't get on to read my blogs for a few days, so I will be keeping these brief for the most part!

XOXOXOXOXOX

Sunday, May 4th

I did not sleep very well last night, and it was totally my own fault. Rowan slept all night long, a miracle in itself! I finally fell asleep around 1:00 AM and was up about every hour on the hour. Ridiculous, I think I need sleeping pills, seriously!!! Anyway, first thing this morning, I was looking at the paper for open houses. I found 5 that I wanted to go and see. Well, the day got a little crazy because of plans that I didn't know about, and no...I'm not complaining, just to make it clear!!! :-) Anyway, so no luck in the house department; and WHY, oh WHY would ANYONE make a ONE BEDROOM HOUSE??? Does this make any logical sense at ALL? Honestly? Okay, so I can understand that a person may have no need to have more bedrooms, but do they not think of RESALE VALUE FOLKS????????????????????????????????? Blows my mind, honestly...it does. So yeah, no luck there today either, and I am getting really agitated. I am ready to find a house already; it is spring time, I want a garden, I want a swing on the porch, a swing set for Rowan and Kyle, I want a room for my Kyle bug when he comes to see me this summer. I am done, and I am ready. WHY OH WHY can I not find a damn thing in this God forsaken town? I am ready to pitch a tent...okay? ANYONE SELLING A THREE BEDROOM HOUSE IN THIS AREA, PLEASE CONTACT ME!!!!!!!!!! I WANT A GARAGE AND MAYBE A BASEMENT, A FENCED YARD, THAT'S REALLY ALL...I am relatively easy to please!
So yeah, then we went to Meradosia for lunch, it's about 30 minutes from here, in the middle of nowhere, but that is where the fam wanted to go. It was pretty good, I must say. I had a salad and baked tilapia, YUM YUM! Rowan didn't eat much; he was tired and grumpy.
Tonight, I finally heard from Jamie; we talked on the computer for a while, since he can't call. We got to talk for quite a while. Rowan was playing in the sun room, being silly as always. :-)
Tonight, Rowan and I took a bath...oh Lord. He was a bear the whole time. He would NOT sit down, he wanted to stand up, but couldn't understand why he kept slipping and getting water in his face. I just let him...he wouldn't listen!!! I love my child, I really do! So, he is in bed, where I should be...I am going now...night night!

Saturday, May 3rd

It is 11:00 PM, and I am just getting home and settled. Today, again, was very busy. I had a million errands to run first thing this morning. I decided to brake down and take myself shopping for something to wear to my cousin's reception tonight. I went and bought two dresses and one dress shirt, then went to Claire's to get some cute accessories. Once I got home and started getting ready, I realized I really wasn't too crazy about any of my new stuff, and I chose to wear a dress I already had...so, I will be taking back all of my new stuff tomorrow...which is good, b/c we really can't be spending money on clothes right now!!! LOL
I won't bore you with the tedious details of the day today b/c I am too tired...just being honest. We got to the reception around 4:30. It was soooo nice to see everyone!!!!!!!!!!! We had a really great time; Rowan and I danced up a storm, until he got too tired to even walk...lol Aunt Jamie ended up putting him to sleep (THANK YOU AUNT JAMIE!!!!!!!!!!!). My nephew, Miles, was hysterical!!!!! He loves parties, and let me tell ya...that boy has some MOVES! LOL He is so sweet. :-) I don't know how my sister does it; Miles, 2 1/2, has food allergies, and she is constantly on her toes making sure he is safe and not getting into anything that he is allergic to. She also has a nine month old, Graham. I'm tellin' ya, she is a freakin' saint!!! It's insane, and being around her and the boys, I realize how lucky I am that Rowan is not allergic to foods...it's insane the extra care and work she puts into raising her boys. If you would like more information on her and the boys, see her blog: milkallergymom.blogspot.com
Okay, so I am bummed out. When I got home, I checked my cell, and realized that Jamie had called me several times...I MISSED HIS CALLS FOR TWO DAYS!!!!!!!!!! I am going to glue my phone to my hip tomorrow. SORRY BABY! I MISS AND LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!
Okay, this blog makes no sense, and I don't even care. GOOD NIGHT!!!