NEED SLEEP

I am still awake; I have been on the phone with Mama L, and when we get to talkin', there is just no stopping us! :-) I had to talk to someone about my obsession with Jamie's care packages, and Mama L was just the person to make me feel better about it! We finalized my crazy list, and she helped me think of more things to send!

I am excited to get out and do the shopping tomorrow; I am going to get the items for Jamie's care package, which thanks to Jenn, Cori and Mama L is a lot less than originally planned...I really do have great support and help (THANK YOU GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!). I am also going to get some flowers/plants (not sure which yet) to send to our nephew Tyas and son, Kyle. Both the boys have a difficult time with Dad/Uncle Jamie being in Iraq, so I am going to mail a package to them both "from Jamie in Iraq". Cori liked the idea of sending them seeds to plant something. It will give them something to "remember" Jamie, and at the same time it is something they will hopefully enjoy taking care of...responsibility, always a great thing for boys their age! I think Tyas will do a really good job, but Kyle may get bored with it...we'll see. Tyas is very much a nurturer.

Okay, I REALLY need to go to bed!!! My OCD needs to shut off for the evening!

LOVES!!! XOXOXOX

OCD???

Okay, I have come to the realization that I really do have OCD. I thought it was just a haha thing, but no...I believe my worst nightmare is coming true. I opened up my planner today, and noticed that pretty much every single day for the rest of this month there is something to do, and by "something", I mean appointments, bridal showers, bachelorette parties, birthday parties, cook-outs etc. I am a little overwhelmed by it all...is this normal? I feel anxious and really stressed out, like if I forget something it will be the end of the world, I will make someone mad, etc. It's not a fun feeling at all!!!
Also, I am obsessing about Jamie's packages and things that he needs us to send to him. Rather than letting it all just happen, I feel like I have to make SURE he gets it all...I am really not right! No wonder people get annoyed by me, I would too!!! My sisters can back me up here, I WAS NOT ALWAYS LIKE THIS!!!!!!!! I was the one with the messy room, clothes strung from one end to the other, and not a care in the world...not anymore! Did motherhood change me??? I mean, in this way? ANYONE??? HELP??? ADVICE??? Come on, help a poor girl out!

Okay, so my accomplishments today: I went to Wal-mart AGAIN for some household items: paper towels, toilet paper, puppy pads (Di's dog), laundry detergent, bleach, crackers for Rowan, Diet Coke, etc. I got Jamie's anniversary card too! SO SWEET, it made me cry...I'm a little emotional. I talked to Cori, my sis in law, before I went into Wal-mart...I was a little sad. I also went to AT&T to find out why the heck my cell phone ring is so quiet...turns out I had it on volume 3...now it is on 7...MUCH BETTER; yes, I AM THAT girl! LOL I went to the post office to mail out some more cards; and yes, I am a total card whore! Oh, and I went to tan at 7 this morning...that is too early! AND...I successfully burnt my entire body, again...I hurt, and I look like a lobster, AGAIN...I think I should call it quits with the tanning thing.
For dinner, we ordered pizza, which Rowan just happens to LOVE!!! We did a little art project with the finger paints, turns out that ROWAN HATES PAINTS!!!!!!!!!!! Who freakin' knew? It's messy, I thought he would love it! Needless to say, we had a good bath tonight!

So, Rowan has learned a few new tricks:
1. He is officially blowing kisses
2. He is saying "bye-bye" very clearly now
3. He is learning to walk down the stairs
4. He has learned to start off the top stair to come down, something he was very much afraid of before now.

I'm sure there are more, but I can't think of them right now. I took some allergy meds, and I am a little loopy right now; Rowan also took Benadryl tonight b/c he has a mad rash all over his left arm...not sure what caused that!

Alright, I am off for the night; much love!