Gloomy day?

I got to talk to Jamie today, and he is so distraught over Deeva. I have never seen him love a dog so much (although he will HATE me for saying this for the world to read!). He is truly, truly, truly upset over her death. This was perhaps the worst part of it all for me. I know how much she meant to ALL of us, and she will forever be missed!
To all of our family and friends: THANK you, sincerely and from the bottom of our hearts, for all of your condolences on our little princess. The emails, texts, myspace messages, phone calls and IM's are very much appreciated!!!

And on a lighter note....
Today was an improvement from yesterday, and to be honest I was quite scared of what could possibly happen next.
I still have no prospects on a house...prayers please!
I did get to talk to Jamie! YAYA
I was so tired this afternoon, I tried like crazy to get a nap to no prevail! My eyes have been so swollen from crying, I wasn't sure I could keep them open!
We went to Spfld to my sister's house for dinner. It was my step-dad's bday, so we had a nice dinner (thanks Jamie and Jeff!!!). I always love seeing the fam; my nephews are growing up so fast!!! I got to see my sweet girl, Melissa, my little sis...although she was in quite a funky mood...not sure why??? Fill me in SIS!!!
So, Jamie convinced me to go to CVS with her at like 9:00??? She is quite the bargain shopper, so why not! So, this is what I got..and don't ask me to explain how! LOL

3 Crest toothpaste (some fancy kind) @ 3.99 ea.
5 Colgate toothbrushes $2.99 ea.
2 Huggies Snug fit diapers (44 pack) $8.99 each
2 Huggies Natural fit (40 pack) 8.99 each
1 2 liter Pepsi $1.69
1 Adidas Deodorant $4.99
(I LEFT MY RECEIPTS IN THE CAR, I THINK THESE ARE ACCURATE)

So, this should have been around $69.56, and I only spent $34.00 with tax!!!
$3.00 off coupons (CVS)
$3.00 off coupon (CVS)
Extra care bucks on toothpaste, toothbrushes, and deodorant = 31.91

It was a little confusing to me, first timer here...and the lady messed up a few things, so it was a mess...and four trips! LOL Anyway, still exciting nonetheless.

So, on the way home, I hit an animal. I don't know what it was, I am thinking a fox? I didn't see it until I hit it. I had to pull over b/c my car was pulling so badly, but it looks okay and we are home...It is almost midnight, and I am tired...goodnight!

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I am just feeling so bummed out. Losing Deeva yesterday has really devastated me, and I cannot seem to shake it. I know it takes time, but I just can't stop crying!!! Every time Rowan is asleep or in the other room, the waterworks start again. Then I wipe my face and put a smile on, like I am somehow tricking him! He knows, and I need to get it together PRONTO!!! God, I just miss her SO MUCH! Pet lovers, dog owners, you know where I am coming from. Deeva was a gift from my husband when he went to Iraq the first time, in 2005. She was also the niece of our beloved Gucci (passed in 2004). My Yorkies are like my children; they go everywhere with me! It was wonderful being in Germany, b/c pets are allowed EVERYWHERE, and we took advantage of it! She went sight seeing with us all the time. Our Army friends LOVED Deeva, she kind of became our little mascot! LOL Every time Jamie and I went somewhere, several people would offer to watch her for us. She was VERY much loved!!! She is was our little sweetheart, and she loved everyone she ever met...

OKAY, I can't talk about it anymore...
I am still upset about the house. I have no more options at this point. I have looked at every house in our price range within a 20 mile radius!!!! I am out of options...I am stressed...I WANT A FREAKING HOUSE NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sad, I am mad, I am agitated, I miss Jamie and I miss our Deevers.... God, PLEASE let things turn around for us soon. I really cannot handle all of this!!!!!!!!!!!!